I have never been fully sold on the idea of marriage and me together. I have nothing against marriage as an institution. I have no problem with all my friends getting married; I have issues with Autumn Lee Hill getting married. But at 23, I am so young that I have plenty of time to see if I ever meet someone who will change my mind.

However, for now, I feel that the video accompanying this post is an accurate portrayal of how I imagine I would be feeling if I did get that close to matrimony right now. Plus it's hilarious and worth watching.

This is from my latest musical discovery, Stephen Sondheim's Company, this particular version was at a concert/tribute for him, and the main part is performed by the very talented Madeline Kahn. Enjoy.

I made it.

After a few annoying days of throwing things out and packing things up, two long, expensive days (curse toll roads and a thirsty car!) of driving halfway across the country, and a few days of scoping things out and making sure I had a place to live, I've officially moved to Pennsylvania.

I have actually, physically left Nebraska, and I have no plans to return in the immediate future. Though I know I'll be back to VISIT my family. I did feel a little sad to leave Omaha, which surprised me. I guess that sounds bad, but as much as I love my family, I've never been the homesick type.

Anyway, my mom came out with me (and somehow I still ended up doing all the driving), and we stayed with my amazing friend Stephanie and her family for a few days while I made sure I had a home to move into when my mom left. And I do. It is really cute, right in downtown Gettysburg, and my new roommate, Audrey, seems really great. Stephanie hooked the two of us up.

I can give more details later, especially as the job hunt is just now beginning, but I am here and I am safe and I am very excited about jumping into this newest chapter of my life!

So yesterday. Yeah. Let me just say that for me, it was a mental and emotional (as much as I hate that word) HELL. An explanation to follow.

I've been in Omaha for several months now, temporarily staying with my parents. I finally decided it was time to leave, and things progressed to a point where I was deciding between moving to Pennsylvania or Utah.

Utah's pull: A job. I was in the process of applying/interviewing for a job where I would actually use my degree. I do have friends I love there, but the job was really the only reason I would move there. I really do not like Utah as a residence. That is not to diminish it's attraction in the eyes of others. I mean no offense, but I am just not a Utah kind of gal.

Pennsylvania's pull: I can't really explain that. I mean, one of my favorite people in the world lives there, and I love the East Coast, but there is also something ... intangible that is just drawing me there.

A couple weeks ago, I found out I did not get the job in Utah. They decided not to hire anyone new at all. That was fine with me. There is always disappointment if you get turned down for a job, but my heart was fully set on Pennsylvania already. So I gave my jobs notice, and my plans progressed from there.

Then yesterday happened. I had been all happy and excited to be moving, and only just a little anxious. Tomorrow is my last day at both of my jobs, and then I'm gone. But while I was at work, I got a call.

It was that Utah job. Someone was quitting, and they offered me the position. I asked for a couple days to think about. Then I proceeded to spend the next seven hours agonizing over what to do. I did my work of course, but all I could think about was what I was going to do.

It was the ultimate battle between heart and mind. Utah made more sense of course. I don't have a job lined up in Penn, and this would break me into my chosen field. Everything in my head said Utah. But every last inch of the rest of me screamed not to go to Utah. I couldn't stomach the idea.

I got off work and headed home, when I got a call. It was the Utah job. Apparently after telling this guy to hire me, his editor turned around and offered it to someone he already knew without telling this guy. So he retracted the offer.

Are you saying, "Are you freaking kidding me?!" right about now. That is what I yelled aloud in my car (with a choice replacement for freaking) when I hung up. I wasn't mad at the guy. I felt sorry for him, but I am not a fan of his editor at all.

If they had any inkling of what they put me through during those seven-ish hours ... man. I got so keyed up; it took me quite a while to calm down. I was just so frustrated and shocked and a million other things. I still am. I know this is a good thing in a way. It doesn't sound like it would have been the most reliable job, and now I am back to happily moving to Pennsylvania. But still ... aaaaaaaaggggggghhhhhhhhh.

OK, this is a really funny bit from Gilbert and Sullivan's operetta, "The Pirates of Penzance." I wanted to put it on my Facebook quotes, but you need the whole dialogue, which is too long. However, I wanted to have it somewhere. So I'm putting it here for your enjoyment.
General. Tell me, have you ever known what it is to be an orphan?
Pirates. (disgusted) Oh, dash it all!
King. Here we are again!
General. I ask you, have you ever known what it is to be an orphan?
King. Often!
General. Yes, orphan. Have you ever known what it is to be one?
King. I say, often.
Pirates. (disgusted) Often, often, often. (Turning away)
General. I don’t think we quite understand one another. I ask you, have you ever known what it is to be an orphan, and you say “orphan”. As I understand you, you are merely repeating the word “orphan” to show that you understand me.
King. I didn’t repeat the word often.
General. Pardon me, you did indeed.
King. I only repeated it once.
General. True, but you repeated it.
King. But not often.
General. Stop! I think I see where we are getting confused. When you said “orphan”, did you mean “orphan” – a person who has lost his parents, or “often”, frequently?
King. Ah! I beg pardon – I see what you mean – frequently.
General. Ah! you said "often", frequently.
King. No, only once.
General. (irritated) Exactly – you said “often”, frequently, only once.

Well I've said it before and I'll say it again: Patti LuPone is a goddess. That woman is absolutely incredible in everything she does. She won a Tony 28 years ago for Evita, and though she's been nominated since, she hadn't won again until tonight.

And what a win. She is playing Mama Rose in Gypsy on Broadway. And when she did her rendition of "Everything's Coming Up Roses" on that Tony stage, she got a standing ovation and brought down the house.

I am so excited for her, probably ridiculously so considering I don't personally know her. Aaaagh! Yay!

Also, I am very glad that Laura Benanti won Best Featured Actress, as she is truly talented as well.

OK, so if you want to get technical about it, I guess it ended when I finished all my classes and received my diploma two years ago. Wow, has it really been two years?

However, I still had one link to my college experience that I was recently forced to part with. That link was my college e-mail address. I got an e-mail last month saying that it was about to be terminated, and now it's gone.

I miss it, and I didn't even really use it anymore. I'd check it every month or so and delete all the student updates and junk mail. Mostly, I just used it for when a Web site required you to give an e-mail address and I didn't want them to have my main account.

For me, it was like that shirt a lot of people have in the back of their closets. You never wear it anymore, but you KNOW that the second you finally toss it or donate it you're going to want to wear it again. I took it for granted. And now that I don't have it, I want it!

So this marks my official and final farewell to college life. All I have now are the memories - if only I could remember where I put them.

So Tony nominations are out!! They've been out for a week or so, but this is the first chance I've had to write about them. I LOVE the Tony Awards. I sort of pay attention to the Academy Awards, but I don't watch any others. For the most part, I am an award show monogamist.

I only know a few of the nominated performers. The nominee I am most familiar with and the one I am most rooting for is Patti LuPone. This woman is incredible. I think of her as our generation's Ethel Merman. She too has a very big, very distinctive voice. And she's done some similar roles. Actually, she is nominated for playing Mama Rose in Gypsy, a role originated by Merman.

She was the original Evita, and won a Tony for that in 1980, she was nominated two years ago for her Mrs. Lovett in Sweeney Todd, and a few others. Stephanie and I also know her from a special performance of Leonard Bernstein's Candide, where she was amazing as the Old Lady. She was a mysterious woman with a drama-filled past and a single buttock.

Kelli O'Hara is nominated for playing Nellie Forbush in South Pacific. I like her because she seems nice and has a good voice. I know her already from A Light in the Piazza. Her co-star in both shows is Matthew Morrison, who is quite talented and easy on the eyes. She also starred with Harry Connick, Jr. in the revival of The Pajama Game. She was nominated for both shows.

Laura Benanti is nominated for playing Louise in Gypsy. She has only just recently come to my attention for starring as Julia in the musical version of The Wedding Singer. I actually really love that musical now; it is so much fun. She was nominated back in 2002 for playing Cinderella in the revival of Into the Woods.

I do have to mention Raúl Esparza, who is nominated for the play The Homecoming. I don't usually pay as much attention to the plays, but he starred in tick, tick...BOOM!, which I absolutely love and love him in, so I will be rooting for him. He's been nominated before for Company and Taboo, but hasn't won.

Though I don't know her as well, I want to mention Faith Prince. She is nominated for A Catered Affair. She played Adelaide in the 1992 version of Guys and Dolls. I have that soundtrack too and she does a great job; I guess she won a Tony for that performance too.

Tom Wopat is also nominated for A Catered Affair. I only know his name because he played Frank Butler to Bernadette Peter's Annie in the revival of Annie Get Your Gun in 1999 and was nominated for it. I have that soundtrack, and he has a nice voice.

Now about the shows themselves. The nominees for Best Musical are Cry-Baby, In the Heights, Passing Strange and Xanadu. Xanadu is a movie I've never seen. I've seen Cry-Baby; it's strange too, but does star Johnny Depp as the title character. I know nothing at all about the other two, But I've read very good things about In the Heights. I have no clue which will win.

The Best Revival nominees are more familiar to me. Grease is nominated, and though it's not my favorite, I believe it stars the winners of that TV show. Gypsy, Patti's show, is nominated. I know a few of the songs, but that's it. I'll know more once I get my hands on the soundtrack of Patti's version.

Sunday in the Park with George got a nod, which I think is great. It's a really interesting Sondheim show, but I don't think that it was received too well on it's first run, when it starred the amazing Bernadette Peters and Mandy Patinkin. The other one is South Pacific. I've always liked this show, but never loved it. My only exposure has been the movie. I am excited about the soundtrack because of Kelli O'Hara and Matthew Morrison.

The Tony Awards are playing Sunday, June 15, so I have 25 days until the big event. I can't wait. And now, everyone knows not to bug me that night. I've already requested it off work! Go Patti!

Have you ever tried a food and been unable to decide with one bite whether or not you liked it? You took another bite and still couldn't tell, so you took another and so on and so on. Sometimes you can finish eating it and still not be sure you liked it. You've ruled out that you hate it, but do you actually enjoy it?

Well, that is me and the TV show The Office. I've heard all the buzz, but I never really felt compelled to watch it myself. I try to avoid watching new shows because if I do like them then that is just one more show I have to find time to watch.

But then a week or two ago, I noticed that my public library had the first two seasons on DVD. So I figured it couldn't hurt to check it out. It was free, which is often a good incentive.

So I started watching an episode or two each night after work, and I really couldn't say if I liked it. It's possible I really hated it, but I kept watching anyway. By the second to last episode of the second season, I still hadn't formed an opinion.

I like aspects of it; I don't like others. I'm a fan of Steve Carell, but the character of Michael Scott is SO annoying that I have a hard time watching him. I guess his acting is too good for me.

However, I think what really kept me watching was the Jim and Pam storyline. What can I say, I have a romantic side deep down. And with the extreme cliffhanger ending of the final episode of the second season, which I won't spoil for anyone who might have not seen it ... I think I'm hooked. I am going crazy waiting until I can get my hands on the third season.

I don't hate The Office. I don't love The Office. But I am watching The Office.

Want to learn something I bet very few people know about me?

I breed alpacas. That's right. Autumn Hill Alpacas, check it out folks. This is not a joke. Although, technically I am not associated with this company in any way shape or form, name aside.

As the word Google evolved into a verb, I joined the ranks of the curious and used the search engine to "Google" myself. However, I am a very difficult person to Google.

I've always been told my name makes me sound like an apartment complex or housing development, and I've never disputed that. It's very true, but I love my name so I don't care. But apparently, I am not the only person who thinks Autumn and Hill go well together.

When I Google "Autumn Hill" I get a whole list of companies. It turns out I am quite the entrepreneur and I never knew it. Along with my alpaca farm, I own my very own vineyard, landscaping company, nursery, graphic design firm and equestrian center. That is not including the other animals I breed (like llamas) and various farms I own. At one point I had a nursing home as well, but when I checked today it was no longer listed. Sorry to all the octogenarians out there.

While I love the fact that my name is associated with something as random as alpacas, it is interesting to think that proving my existence on the World Wide Web takes a lot of work. If you add BYU-Idaho after my name, you can find a couple of hits with old Scroll articles I've written, but that's it.

So while you may never get anything on me from the Internet, please do think of me for any and all of your alpaca-related needs.